Flotsam

Nowadays I get this constant sensation that I'm swimming around aimlessly in a sea of my own filth. I want to rise above my own weaknesses and shortcomings, but once you become a man in the SAF there aren't really any ladders whatsoever being handed to you, and you are left treading water. Sure, you won't drown, but at the same time you'll never get out of that sea either.

On a side note, I don't think I'm getting the DSTA scholarship anymore, since I have yet to receive any news from them since the start of April. Oh well, I'm still on my way to a local education at the very least.