Last friday, went for hockey training, performed severely below par. for some reason the sun was really killing me that day. came back from training with a splitting headache, so i decided not to go for nyp night training. instead, i tried to do the physics drq booklet, but it was really hard to concentrate with the headache and im pretty sure i ended up completing it way over-time. was kind of appalled by all the idiotic, careless mistakes i was making. have my academic capabilities really rusted beyond recognition? is this the level that i should even be operating on?
the next day, woke up with a really high fever. i wanted to go grab the thermometer, but i got dizzy the moment i sat up, and i unwittingly went back to sleep. im not sure whether it was minutes or hours, but some time later my mom woke me up and brought me to the doctor. turns out it's a throat infection of some kind (i actually took a flu jab sometime last month - now im beginning to think it was wasted money -.-). spent the rest of the day mostly in bed.
the day after that (today), the weirdest thing happened to me. i woke up to get breakfast, and then i started sweating uncontrollably. i was literally drenched in sweat and shivering at the same time. i thought this meant that i finally broke the fever (at one point it did go down below 38 degrees, the first time that's ever happened since it started), but by afternoon it climbed back up again. at least the dizziness has subsided, but i still feel a bit weak though.
Indeed, all thoughts are nought in this corporeal prison - no matter how much we know, how much we understand, we are ultimately human, and for all our self-imagined sageliness all will eventually succumb to the binding chains of the human body. what use is all this thought, if all the same we still need food, water, air, medicine? how different a life would one live as a human or as an animal? it all seems kind of pointless and futile.
