Disappointed in myself.
Never mind the inability to perform academically, whatever happened to my basic duties as a student? Rotting away in my seat, hoping for the best while not preparing for it. I actually disgust myself right now.
I feel like I've alienated myself from my goals and dreams through my own actions and inactions, and now I'm paying the price: no aspirations for company, just my lone ambition. It's not really sadness or anger anymore. It's more of resignation. So I guess this doesn't count as a whiny emo post, right?
We Come Out At Night by Avenged Sevenfold. I think I can really relate to the lyrics right now:
Black and gray clouds willow in the balance as the sun falls.
Rain plays a heart warming tune, on the pavement.
Emotions stir.
A feeling of warmness, compassion; I feel at home.
Disguised by surroundings.
As the torn and left in the gutter seek vengeance on their mistreated lives.
The torn, left in the cold, seek vengeance on mistreated lives.
The torn, left in the cold, seek vengeance, mistreated lives.
A silhouette stands still; lone cactus on a warm summer night.
But the rain falls cold, and the moon shines bright.
Black as night; cold as ice; warm as home; ready to live.
Stars they shoot.; in a clear; across the sky; as does my time.
Waiting, wanting, feeling, emotion.
Crying, breaking, loving, nothing.
Clouds swallow the moon, and I'm alone.
Thinking good times, and why'd they go?
Falling down, breaking away from me.
Falling down, breaking away from me.
Fuck.
I need this place to get away from you.
Clouds swallow the moon, and I'm alone.
Thinking good times, and why'd they go?
