Two things.
firstly, it was our final A div match today, against TPJC, and in my opinion our best overall performance. we managed to win 2-1 and at least not finish last in our group. i guess for myself it was a sort of confirmation that although we aren't the best, we can at least win matches. it was also a confirmation for me personally, as i managed to score one for the team. all in all, i still have regrets that we only had a full team and started training seriously so late, but still i think today was the closest we have ever come to reaching our full potential. i think i'll still go down for training occasionally, to help train the juniors or just for a casual game of hockey. maybe i'll end up like haikal, coming back to NJC to teach and help out with hockey at the same time? who knows what the future holds for us. i guess deep down im just hoping that after two years of blood and sweat (literally), hockey won't just leave my life just like that, without a trace.
secondly, i spoke with the chinese HOD today, and i guess im retaking chinese. just thinking about all the precious one-hour breaks foregone for excruciating chinese lessons for another two months already gets me down, but i guess since i've chosen this path for myself i should see it through to the end. it's just depressing that while i used to have the 27 jokers with me, now im nearly alone in this journey, except for chongwee and maybe a few other people i know, if im lucky. it's difficult to comprehend just how much a difference the company of friends makes until it's gone.
continuing my current obsession with A7X live in the LBC, here's their performance of Scream, which i think is one of their best songs. people say that the lyrics are evil (they tell a story of a man raping / torturing / killing(?) a woman) and thus the song should be boycotted, by i think otherwise. movies like Saw may also be "sick" like Scream, but they provide insight into the mind of the killer and give us a glimpse into their world of insanity, which i find to be highly interesting indeed (fun fact: Scream was used in one of the Saw movies). many controversial works which seem to promote an "evil" message, such as 1984 and Animal Farm (both some of my favourite books) are actually highly intellectually intriguing thought experiments into the taboo and not the "satanic scriptures" which they originally appear to be. in anycase, here's Scream by Avenged Sevenfold, live at the LBC:
