Well, the first day is over, and i can't help but feel slightly disappointed over GP. i really don't know what came over me when i picked that essay question. looking back, i have no idea how "'Powerful branding now dictates consumer choice.' Discuss" looked like an easy question to do, by any means. in any case, i doubt that choosing a different question would have changed much, given my horrible time management. couldn't finish the essay or the AQ. i just needed maybe 5 minutes to salvage my concluding paragraphs, and perhaps my grade as well. oh well.
physics was slightly better, i guess, but the quantum physics question was out to kill us all. until now, i haven't found a single person who can confidently say that he/she has found the right answer, and i'm only about 50-60% sure of my own answer.
in any case, there's no way to look except forward; to let past failures demoralise us is only to lose again in the same battle. even though there's not much to look forward to tomorrow (econs X_X ), you'll have a greater chance of success (or be likely to lose less) if you go in at 100%.
something i stumbled upon: God did not create Universe. personally, i was rather taken aback by this statement from Stephen Hawking of all people. from what i know of him (which admittedly is not a lot), he's always taken a neutral religious stance in his work. for him to come out and something like this must have took quite a revelation on his part. still, from what little of his argument was revealed in the link, it seems that he deduced that the big bang could possibly have resulted from all the particles in existence coming together due to their collective gravity, and then used Occam's Razor to deduce that since a higher power is not needed to explain things, we should therefore not consider one. personally, this still doesn't change my strong apathetic agnostic position on religion. one has to consider why much of the universe is minimalistic: applying evolution theory, it can be explained that all the unnecessary junk in the universe simply phased itself out due to non-utility, but can we really apply this when a higher bing is concerned? no, not really. either a god exists, or it does not, and you can't simply have a god "disappear" when not needed. so in my opinion, it's still 50-50. and hence my agnostic stand remains. (note to self: add "A Brief History of Time" and "The Grand Design" to my after-'A's reading list; i can't believe i have yet to read these classics)
it's amazing how people can change over the years. granted, it has been 6 years, and i've heard stories about it, but i'm still reeling from shock of actually seeing it all. i won't judge based on stereotypes, but if those stereotypes are true here then i really wonder what happened to the high flyer who was supposed to be.
