Ok, how do i start... im just ur average student i guess, year 1 in NJC. im keeping this blog secret first as part of my experiment to see whether im enthu enough to sustain a blog for the long-term. i actually had another blog before this, but dat was quite epic-fail cos i totally had no drive to update it and it lasted all of 2 posts (as u might guess, perseverance is not one of my strong suits). so, if ur reading this, 1. ur a random person, 2. ur a lucky friend, or 3. i managed to sustain the blog.
i guess im supposed to talk abt my life now? well, a whole lot of stuff has been just zooming past me. firstly, promos results. think i did quite well (hope i dont sound too braggy :X), but still the results release day (28th oct btw) left quite a deep and solemn impression on me... at first i was quite happy with my results, but then i noticed the ppl around me who weren't doing so well. sitting right behind me, there was this girl crying when we were getting back chem results, looking across the amphitheatre i could see a few of my friends looking quite downcast, even saw one crying. even jacob, usually the always-joking clown of 09SH27, was looking a bit emo. was it right of me to be feeling so happy amidst all this tragedy? try as i might, i simply could not genuinely feel happy that day.
then today, we had to confirm our overall marks for the year (promos, common tests and daily assignments/quizzes all factored in). i know i should be feeling happy abt my marks, but there's this naggy feeling at the back of my head reminding me that the grades are moderated. suddenly, Mdm Ee's words from the cat high days echo in my head: we're sitting for a national exam, and only a certain percentage of As is allowed, so getting on-the-dot marks is not enough to secure the grade. i wonder if this advice is as applicable to A levels as it is to O levels? just a tinge of nostalgia in there, missing the simplicity of the cat high days. then again, njc has been really vibrant for me, albeit with a new, foreign host of problems... oh well, cant have ur cake and eat it i guess
after that, had OP dry run. teo tze wei and MNG were gonna invigilate, talk abt nerve-wracking! luckily, MNG had some last-min stuff, so only teo tze wei, our ST ms chen and some other teacher i dont know were there. from their comments, it seems our presentation is just way too boring. watched lionel's group and yicen's group present their OP informally beforehand, felt that they really know how to make their OP engaging and fun. our group on the other hand, everything is so boring -.- Brenda mentioned dat i must smile more while presenting, i tried to keep dat in mind while doing the dry run but still failed; mr teo said the exact same thing. really a facepalm moment for me there, must learn to absorb advice and feedback! mistakes are ok, as long as no 2 mistakes are made over the same reason. as long as we learn from each mistake, i feel that nothing is wasted. too bad i failed to abide by my own idealistic motto... *facepalm again*
A level chinese is on monday, but strangely i dont feel anything. i rly expected myself to feel more anxious and nervous than i do now, wonder if this bodes ill for my exam performance :X. in fact, i shld be doing some chinese compre paper now, but instead im doing a blog. oh well, prioritising ftw
and now, a cryptic message to those involved: dont you ppl feel tired constantly keeping each other at arm's length? i know dat the situation is something which i will nvr be able to personally relate to, but still i rly hope dat, like me, there is still a part of u guys which yearns for things to return to the way they were before. if im reading the signs correct (and i pray dat i am, i dont think i can take it if it all turns out to be false hope), there has been no better time to start rebuilding those broken bridges. dont let the trail turn cold, dont let this blessing borne from fate disappear. the sooner this is over, the sooner u guys can stop taking extra pains just to live life around each other.
well, lets end on a lighter note. in case u didnt know, im a huge fan of Protest The Hero, a sort-of progressive metalcore band from Canada. This song has been stuck in my head and looping in my playlist for months now, and i feel that some the lyrics are quite insightful (Language is the heart's lament!). enjoy:
