Sitting down at the junction

Today was the last H3 physics lecture. after this, there will be 3 more tutorials, then it will be the final exam constituting 70% of my overall grade. regarding the exam, i honestly don't have high hopes for it, considering how i fared for the previous 2 small tests. i'm aiming for a pass, maybe even a merit if the heavens permit it, but i highly doubt that i'll be able to get the distinction that everyone wants me to aim for. oh well, despite all that gloom and doom, i have to say that i truly enjoyed my stint in the course. it's very rare that i actually feel a desire to learn, and this course was one of those rare moments. enrolling into this course may or may not have been to my best academic interests, but it's definitely been a great personal decision, and if given the chance to turn back the clock i would definitely take the same path again without hesitation.

here's a song i wanna talk about; Tears Don't Fall by Bullet For My Valentine:



i love the tune of the chorus :) i wish there was a bit more screaming, but that's just a minor problem. what i feel ruined an otherwise awesome song however, and i know this will anger metalheads everywhere, is the guitar solo. don't get me wrong, the guitar solo itself is quite impressive, but i hate that it's just crammed in the middle of the song to serve no other purpose other than as the ubiquitous guitar solo in a metal song. seriously man, the transition from the slow-paced song to the high-speed solo is as jarring as anything. and don't give me any of that "they're trying to be progressive" nonsense, cos there are bands who can jump from slow to fast to slow again and make it all sound good and smooth-flowing (read: Protest The Hero). and it's also possible to have a solo that is incredibly technical and yet fits nicely into a slow tempo (the guitar solo in Scream is one of my favourite examples of that), so really it's just a fatal flaw in Bullet's songwriting in this case. one of the things i've grown to hate is guitar solos for their own sake, riffing for the sake of riffing (which is the major reason why i have largely stopped listening to DragonForce). please, a song is not a frankenstein's mix of verse, chorus, bridge and solo; all the parts have to complement each other to make a good song. so here you go: a good song, but not nearly a great song :/

i should be studying right now, but i'm paralyzed by my choices. studying gp is now a lost cause (sorry ms chua :X ), but i still have to choose between 3. econs is a subject i desperately need revision in with the common test coming next week, but my H3 physics final exam is in 2 weeks and i'm just as prepared for it as i am for econs (AKA completely unprepared). and of course, chinese A levels is also in 2 weeks, and i can't help but feel obligated to study for a subject that i'm actually retaking. everything's crashing down on me at once; i know that there will be light at the end of the tunnel, but the opening is closing up so fast that i'm afraid that i will only be able to fit my desperately clawing hand through. and ironically, the sudden pressure from it all is making me feel so tired and soulless that i don't feel like studying anything at all, which of course will lead to my certain destruction.

I have reached a crossroad, and all I feel like doing is sitting down at the junction.

Nightmare comes out tomorrow! :)