I woke up this morning to quite the surprise.
A fork in the road of life, and he chose his path at the drop of a hat. what of the fact that his path was inseparably intertwined with that of four other people? was it still a personal decision when it affected so many others? it was in his mind. so he decided to walk down his path, burning the bridges behind him, almost as if he wanted to experience the thrill of taking the road of no return.
how different will life be now? honestly i can't tell myself. they've promised that our lives will barely be affected, but it's a promise i know as well as they do will be difficult to keep.
personally, i don't know how i'm supposed to feel. i have to respect his personal decision, especially so given my status, but i can't help but feel indignant over how little thought was put into his seemingly overnight decision. he did absolutely no research into the matter, and when research was finally done it only made future prospects seem even dimmer than we originally thought.
recklessness; impulsiveness; is this my future? will i turn out as rash, as (dare i say it?) callous? little jokes between friends, comments and actions made in jest, will they come back to haunt me once they have been cemented into habit? am i setting the foundations of my own destruction?
