I think gp has become such a chore and a torture for both student and teacher now. the student is faced with an abstract, amorphous enemy of a subject that cannot be fathomed, while the teacher is faced with a brick wall and cannot communicate with the muffled pleas for rescue that may or may not be coming from the other side. i think the system has had just about enough of me and is ready to spit me out. just as well, i guess; trying to fit me into the system was like trying to fit an extra cog into a perfectly running clock anyway. yet, i feel like making the clock run again, if only to save everyone the agony of being eternally stuck in time like they are now, but i am simply not the right fit in the clockwork. or maybe i feel like being transferred to another class, where the teacher is less acutely aware of the futility of the whole situation. maybe that will help me ignore it too.
yesterday was the last day of school. well, for most people anyway. but hey, i'm not too far off from the rest; just two more major exams and i'll be free by next tuesday :) and after that, it will finally be time to crash and burn in peace. i think i'll spend the first few days sleeping and eating and sleeping before i even contemplate anything else. i have been seriously drowsy these few days, and i want to enjoy the holidays not drifting off to dreamland every other minute if possible. but behind all that ohmygawdimmadocrazyshit-ness, at the back of everyone's minds, is that little voice saying that the CTs are only a month away. this year, much more than the last, the holidays will be constantly interrupted by bouts of locking oneself in a room and tackling the Weapon of Mass Destruction that is holiday homework. ironic, isn't it, that our very last june and september holidays will also be the least holiday-like of all.
so on a random note, i decided to hear Slipknot for the first time yesterday after reading about them in the papers (their bassist just died; RIP). well, it didn't really work out for me. i mean i'm not saying that they suck, and the drummer especially seems quite talented (and the lead guitarist to a lesser extent), but on the whole i find them to be quite plain and boring really. not to mention the fact that they wear those masks, and they break each other's bones and throw their shit around during live performances (literally), which i personally think is just a lot of unneeded drama. one thing i've always disliked is metal bands acting hardcore through superfluous theatrics like that, when they should be proving it through their music (i guess i'm less of a metalhead than simply a metal fan). and another thing is they have NINE members. like, 8+1=9, that nine. including two custom percussionists, who basically bang on one drum over and over, and a sampler, who basically presses a button that plays a sound. seriously, nine members just makes a band overly big and bulky in my opinion. just like SNSD, Super Junior and countless other K-pop groups with like two singers and a whole bunch of backup dancers. but in any case, here's a song from Slipknot. the intro was quite interesting, but the rest of the song just sounds very generic. maybe in time i'll learn to like this song, but definitely not as much as the other bands i listen to. oh well. Psychosocial, by Slipknot:
